He stands right next to the ledge.
Only his arms keep me from jumping.
I try to wrestle from his grasp.
I am so close.......
But my brother appears.
As if this day could get worse.
My boyfriend stopping me from jumping.
And then my brother appearing.
I try once again to get free.
I'm so so close, again......
"S'arrearr e`ter Le Cristal!"
He's using our native language.
A languagnever use.
French or Le Fracais.
I want to cry.
Josh, a.k.a. boyfriend, releases me.
Holden pulls me away from the ledge.
He looks angry.
It hurts so much.
He hugs me tightly.
"Ce que e`tre tu penes."
His voice is hard.
I'm sure Josh can't understand.
I can't reply.
My voice is gone.
To be continued.